Today I went to my book club, where we discussed the book, Eat Love Pray, and being that it is part of my inspiration for starting this blog, I thought I would mention it. The author takes a year and travels to Italy, India, and Indonesia on basically a journey to recovery after a difficult divorce and dealing with depression.
There were a few things that I connected with (and some that I didn’t)…one of them was finding a word that describes your life. She found her “word” at the end of her travels, so I suppose it’s not a big deal that I don’t know what my word is, but I’m going to think about it and see what I can come up with. The only words that come to mind these days are maybe exhaustion or overcommitted?? Yeah, I need to think of a more positive life description.
The other idea that I came away with was after reading about her experiences with meditation in an Indian ashram. They would spend hours each day in a meditation cave…which to our culture seems indulgent and even selfish…while I have a hard time finding 10 minutes to pray and read my Bible. Go figure…
So, I’m letting some of her ideas kick around and see how they poke themselves in my actions…I’m not planning on taking off for a weekend of silence in the woods or anything, but…what if I did? Would I spend the whole time feeling guilty that I wasn’t getting more things done or would I allow myself to find a deeper communion with God?
And maybe on a more practical level, if I get to the end of the day and I am not able to cross anything off of my “to-do” list, but I can say that I spent quality time with my kids, snuggled with my husband, and not much else, will I be able to say it was a “good day” instead of feeling guilty and frustrated with myself?
I hope.
I hope for balance.
And an idea for dinner, by the way…(see how quickly I jump back into “to-dos”?)
